Cool Site on Fetal Development...

http://www.umm.edu/pregnancy/000088.htm

Ramen Noodles?!

Today I am eating Ramen Noodles...Picante Chicken flavor. No I am not in college anymore but I am craving salty hot foods. Plus it's cold outside. It makes up for my Taco Salad day yesterday. At least it's cheap. I know it's processed and kind of gross but dang it's my craving. I will probably have regrets later.

****Yummy...that was good!

****1:43 p.m. hello heartburn! :(

So that is what a craving is...

So I was about to DIE about a hour a go because all I could smell is taco/nachos from downstairs. It was so intense that literally it was all I could think about. I had been thinking about it in the morning because it's Taco Salad day Wednesday. I had brought my lunch (a organic burrito) just in case I didn't really want a Taco Salad. All was going good until I smelled the aroma from my coworkers lunch. That was it! I was sold. I told Sandro (via messenger) if I didn't get a Taco Salad immediately that I would die and eat my hand. Here is our convo:

Stephanie says:
kill me if you want
Stephanie Juric:
but omg God I am bout to die
Sandro says:
die?
Stephanie Juric:
yes
Stephanie Juric:
from hunger
Stephanie Juric:
and cravings
Sandro says:
what did you bring for lunch?
Stephanie Juric:
and I am so emotional I am about to throw my computer out the window
Stephanie Juric:
literally
Stephanie Juric:
out the freaking window
Stephanie Juric :
a burrito
Sandro says:
go get you nachos
Stephanie Juric:
I am trying to pace myself...
Stephanie Juric :
holy crap this is good
Sandro says:
lol
Sandro says:
you take it easy there
Sandro says:
don't eat your co-workers
Stephanie Juric:
I was about to eat my hand there for a second
Sandro says:
lol

We have a HB!

A strong 8 week heartbeat of 155 bpm. The sono tech said that the baby was up high in a nice cushy place in my uterus and that I most likely ovulated out of my right ovary. (just like last time) Wow! What a sigh of relief that I have. I tried to enter into this with as much positive energy as I could. I am so happy and excited. My due date is 10/21/08. However, my LMP says it's 10/19/08. As you remember in my chart it showed that I ovulated late. So the two day difference is actually correct. So technically this means I am 7 weeks 5 days...But definitely in the correct range.

So here is the pic of our blob (bean):

Week 8

So today is the big day. So nervous but I am just trying to stay as positive as possible. Sandro and I have discussed this many of times and he wants me to remember that even if this isn't the one that we keep trying and will have a child. Perhaps not in 2009 but it will happen eventually. He is just tying to keep me from being too upset if this appointment doesn't work out they way WE want it to work out. This time he is trying to be realistic verses just so certain that nothing could go wrong. I understand why he is saying this and I appreciate it.

This weekend I was feeling a lot of cramps. I don't remember this feeling from last time so of course I did some goggle research on week 8. From here.

Some women notice some mild abdominal cramping midway through their first trimester. This is a very common experience and may continue for several weeks. The cramping is usually mild and does not cause any harm. Your physician may recommend you rest and stay off your feet if you are having abdominal cramping. Remember that your body is also accommodating a growing fetus, and your uterus is stretching, a process that might cause some discomfort over time. If you have any unusual abdominal pain or cramping however that is persistent and worrisome, or if you experience any cramping accompanied by bleeding be sure to contact your healthcare provider's office right away.

Time to pull out the mantra's today. Positive energy needed all around:

* "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."
* "I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise."
* "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
* "Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot ‘jinx’ your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!
* And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."

Economy Sucks

Yesterday was a super hard day for me. They laid off two people in our group. We are a small company and losing two people is going to super hard. They said it was the economy and that is the only layoffs that they foresee. Of course he said that he didn't have a crystal glass to see what could happen in the future. I feel sick to my stomach to think that it could have just as easily been me they laid off. One of the coworkers they let go did the same job that I did. However, she was part time. The other coworker was a developer. Lets just say that it's going to be so super quiet around here and one of my closest work buddies is now gone.
I am so worried about bringing baby into a bad economy like this. DH and already discussed a gameplan in which we will be very frugal for the next several months making sure we have a decent sized baby fund saved up. We are cutting back as much as we can and basically eliminating all unnecessary spending. Of course there is this deep down fear one of could lose our job. It's just such a bad time for baby but I can't say I regret it all. I want this baby more than anything and really you can't depend on the economy or anything else to make it a better situation. Recessions scare me but perhaps there is a chance to turn it around with our newly elected president. I know it will be several years to have our economy to recover. I am confident Sandro, baby and I will survive.

Week 7

One more week until the big ultrasound. Symptoms seem to be about the same. I am hungry all the time and can't really function well if I miss a meal. My stomach growls in the morning even after eating a good sized dinner. I am feeling bloated more than anything and my face just looks different. I can't wait till next week. I have a feeling that I will be completely unable to focus until after the appointment next Monday. All I can say is that I am happier that it's earlier this time because I want to know what is happening down there..good or bad.

I am really sleepy this morning. This is the type of morning that I miss coffee. Decaf is great but it just doesn't have that kick that regular coffee has. I yawn all morning and just feel so sleepy that all I want to do is take a nap at my desk.

Here is what happening with the back this week.

I'm Tiny But Gaining Fast!
The baby is about 1/3 of an inch, the size of a grain of rice. Development of the arms and legs continue although the fingers and toes haven't yet formed. The brain is growing as well as the lenses of the eyes, nostrils, intestines, pancreas and bronchi.