Subchorionic Hematoma

So the bleeding started again. But it wasn't like it was unxpected. This time it looks like me period started. The blood is dark red and bright. (fresh) I think the clot could have been interrupted by intercourse. It was a huge gush at first and now it's slowed down to a slow bleed that only appears when I urinate. No cramping at all and no large clots are being passed. I am trying my best to just relax and take it easy and not panic. It you look closely at my u/s picture below. You will notice the dark spot. This is where they feel the clot is as well as where the bleeding is coming from.So what is the subchorinonic Hematoma (blood clot) in the uterus. Taken from here

Causes of Subchorionic Hematoma

There is no known cause for a SCH but many researchers speculate that during egg implantation, the egg slightly separates or tears from the uterus causing a bleed. There is nothing a woman did or could have done to cause or prevent them. SCH occurs to pregnant women of all ages and races.
Diagnosing Subchorionic Hematoma

Diagnosing a SCH is based on its symptoms and visualization via ultrasound scan. Many women visit the doctor or emergency department with the chief complaint of vaginal bleeding during early pregnancy. An ultrasound, either transvaginal or abdominal, would more than likely be carried out. During the ultrasound scan, the doctor or radiologist will locate the fetus and assess it’s current condition. Identifying a SCH by an untrained eye is difficult. The clot appears as a black mass within the uterus. It almost appears as if another placenta is present. Ordinary ultrasound images appear blackish with visuals of bone. After a visual of the blood clot is made, and it appears a woman is not having a miscarriage, the diagnosis of SCH is made.

The good news is that it's not completely uncommon. I found a long list of people that are suffering from the same thing and is experiencing the same thing. This is helping me stay positive. I have decided to completely not have intercourse until I know the clot is gone along with just taking it easy, no heavy lifting. I remind myself everyday there is nothing I can do to prevent a miscarriage. If I where to have one again then I know in my heart I will make it through it. However, I have a really good feeling about this after the last ultrasound. Baby is doing great and I just have to keep taking care of myself.

Feeling that sense of calm today...

After such a stressful week and that scare I had about baby I am feeling so much better overall. The spotting has turned more into discharge (only on the liner not when I wipe and just a little bit) and my confidence level is steadily raising. Seeing the baby yesterday was absolutely amazing. It has grown so much in a week and the heart rate was so prefect. So steady. Looking closer at the u/s it says that the sac is measuring ahead 9 w 4 days. Yesterday I was supposed to be 9 w 1 day. So the fact that it jumped three days ahead makes me feel better about everything. I even did a little movement when we looking at it. The u/s tech said this rare. She said you can see the noobs starting to form that will be the arms and legs. So all of this has totally relaxed me. Yesteday I went home and had the worst headache. Not sure what caused it. Could be allergies. I literally collapsed in bed at 8:15. Of course I had about 5 runs to the restroom through out the night but I slept really hard and I woke up feeling tried but at least refreshed.

This weekend I have a photo shoot with Charisma. I am doing her bridals. I am so excited. I get to test out my new flash. Next weekend I have her wedding pictures to take.

Back from the Dr. - Good News.

The appointment went well. They did a u/s and the baby is growing right on track. The HB is 170 bpm. They said the spotting is due to a small blood clot in the uterus. It will mean that I may have more spotting or it will disappear on it's own. They aren't too worried about it but they want me to come in two weeks for another u/s and appointment. I am so relieved. I am just so happy that baby is doing okay. I need to learn not to freak out about every little thing. She also told me the cramps that I am feeling are normal. It was great talking to the Dr. about my concerns. I am so happy I went.

U/S picture to follow. The baby did move a little. Which is a good sign since it's still a little early for that. It's growing right on track.

Off to the Dr.

Yesterday I was getting a increase of the spotting. Not red or anything but it was starting to show up on the liner and was making me super nervous. So I called the nurse in a frantic and she told me not worry...she still thought it was normal. Yesterday I noticed that my sensitivity was at a all time HIGH. I was in tears all day partially. My customers were really getting on my nerves and I was just becoming stressed. DH thinks that stress is making the spotting appear that I just need to calm down. The nurse called me back about 10 mins later and told me that she talked to the Dr. and for my piece of mind that I should come in for a ultrasound at 11:00 a.m. tomorrow. She was concerned that it was adding to my stress worrying about and due to my past history that it may be better just to make sure all is good. This helped me calm down but still scared the crap out of because I just don't know what to expect. So again tears. I just really wanted a place I could cry for a moment because work was just killing me yesterday and I don't have a car and I can't cry in the restroom. So as soon as Sandro drove up I cried for almost the whole ride home. As awesome as he is he did what any man would do in the situation and just let me cry and told me that I need to stop reading the nest and to stop watching TV for awhile. He then forced me to go on a outing with him and the dogs and walk around the beach by the lake. We got subway and took the dogs with us. They really appeared to enjoy themselves. Though Apollo was deathly afraid of the waves. After that I felt the stress leave the body. The spotting slowed down a lot. So my goal is not to stress out. Just take one step at a time. Try to focus on the positive and don't let my customers get to me. All I can do now is hope and pray for the best. Hopefully at the appointment this morning they will tell me all is good and what I am experiencing is completely normal. I can't focus on the what if's. (Sandro exact words)

Week 9

So still a little spotting this morning. Sorta a brownish red only when I wipe. I had no spotting when I went to sleep and all looked good. I also was peeing and drinking a ton of water so perhaps that is why. No crazy cramps or anything out of the ordinary. I am suspecting a infection of some sort though, maybe a bladder or yeast infection causing the issue. But I guess this is just my way of being positive. I can tell you this morning I almost yacked in the shower. So nauseous for some reason. It makes it really hard to get going in the morning. I lay on the bed for at least 10 minutes after a shower. Then another 10 mins after I get dressed. Not real productive. I still get here early. I am hoping baby is okay. I am stilling a little pressure (crampy) in my pelvic area. But I don't really equate this to menstrual cramps. The nurse told me I could take Tylenol if I needed for the cramps but I told her that it really doesn't feel that bad or bad enough to take anything. Just kinda of gassy and uncomfortable but not rolling around in pain. My boobs are still growing. I look a little top heavy. They are very sensitive.

So here is what is going on with baby this week. Taken from here.

Your baby is growing like crazy during pregnancy week 9. By pregnancy 9 weeks most of the aspects of your baby's physical structure such as head, arms, legs and torso are in place. If you were to peek in on your little one you'd find they resemble a miniature human being (one with a very large head!). Because your baby's organs and limbs are forming, in the next few weeks your baby will be putting on weight. Your baby's tail should have disappeared by now, and your baby's organs and muscles should be functioning on their own.

Spotting

So yesterday I started spotting in the evening. It started as a really light red tinted cm (cervical mucus) and it only appears when I wipe. Before I went to sleep it, I did #2 and it appeared red. Not enough for a pad but it was very suspicious. Of course the super worried part of me goes into panic mode. Tears start flowing and I really just end up crying myself to sleep. This morning it's more brownish than anything. No cramping really just feeling a little uncomfortable. I, of course, am calling the doctor this AM and hoping and praying for a miracle. It could be too things. One that my cervix is super sensitive. I had sex twice this weekend and both times I wasn't particularly comfortable. Or it could be from my ultrasound last week and it's just now appearing. All I know is that I will have to reflect back to my Mantra's and just try to remain as positive as possible. I finding this difficult because there is nothing more than I want in this entire world but to have this baby.

* "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
* And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."

***Update: Talked to the Nurse. She said it's completely normal. Especially after sex. She said if the spotting turns to blood or if I feel menstrual like cramps to call again. But she feels it's completely normal especially during this point in the pregnancy. So I will be putting my feet up and taking a temporary pelvic rest to my next appointment. (which is next Tuesday) Luckily it's been super light (hardly brown at all) the last several times I went to the restroom.

Stolen Questionnaire

I have been a ball of emotions lately. For instance I cried at Costco yesterday. I was so proud that I had all my coupons ready. They tend to send them two weeks early. Well I got confused (or had a case of the pg brain) and I thought they were good on Sunday (March 15th) I mistakenly thought yesterday was the 16th. So there I was buying everything that my coupons where good for. Got up to the line and the girl was like today isn't March 16th. These aren't good till tomorrow. Before I could speak I just walked a way. She didn't need a pg lady going crazy on her. I just let Sandro deal with it. They told him that if we bring the coupons tomorrow that we can still get the discount and our money refunded. (which was close to $15 dollars) I sat there and cried for at least 5-10 mins. DH was trying to hard to get me to smile and not worry about it. Nonetheless we have plans to go to Costco to get our coupon savings. I was just really embarrassed.

Then on top of all that Sandro hasn't really been good about dealing with my emotions. Expect in the above scenario. For instance on Saturday I really wanted to check out the new Target. I had my coupons all ready and I thought it was a good day for it. So he says he will take me. We arrive and instantly he gets a attitude. He doesn't a partially like Target and to him they are all the same and didn't see the big deal of checking out the new one. So he stands behind me like an annoyed husband does. Doesn't rush me but really makes me feel uncomfortable because it's not talking or shopping just standing there annoyed. So while we are leaving I get upset. Then he says "I am not one of your girlfriends, what do you expect out of me?" So there I go crying fit. I didn't ask him to be one of my girlfriends. I just wanted him not to act so annoyed. Especially when I was looking at baby stuff. Another examples was yesterday I really wanted Hashbrowns. I got a package of organic ones and I had it in my head to have the ones they showed in the picture on the package. Well Sandro used the wrong pan and they came out soggy. (of course I get all upset) So he tries a different pan and managed to salvage them. I tried to explain to him that my hormones are just on overload.

Also my dreams have been crazy. Like last night I dreamed I become part of a computer game. I actually wrote the code. But somehow I had a glitch in the code that caused your to get caught in this maze that took you to this like a nazi boot camp. This camp was just basically set up to lower the amount of people in the human race. There was this one part where you had to order food and a quesadilla cost $233 dollars and all they would accept was checks. Then you would notice that older people where being sent off. (I guess to be killed) Then it switched back to the country. Like some people survived by not getting trapped in this maze and they all fled to the country. I think I was on my Grandma's porch with 10 other people camped out. They kept telling me it wasn't "really country" and asked me if I knew the back roads. At the same time there buses of people (like dart buses) flying through the roads. That is when I was awoken by the dirt bike sound of someone having a joy ride at 3:00 a.m. in the a.m. Trippy dream but I woke up remembering it all. I have a lot of those lately.

So one of my favorite blogs "The Heir to Blair" posts a weekly questionnaire on how the pregnancy is going so far. I love that idea so I am stealing it. She actually posts her weekly belly pictures and I soon will be doing this as well. :)

How far along? 8 wks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: Haven't weighed but my pants don't feel tight yet.
Maternity clothes? Yes, some days I do. But I don't like them much because they seem to emphasize my growing uterus.
Stretch marks? Only the ones I had from before (when I was bigger)
Sleep: Too freaking much. I go to sleep at 8:30-9:00..If I don't go to sleep on time I won't want to wake up the next morning. Also I have to nap 2-3 times on the weekend.
Best moment this week: I would have to stay hearing the whoosh whoosh whoosh.
Movement: Nope. But I have been cramping on and off all week.
Food cravings: Salty and Hot Foods, Peanut Butter Oatmeal Chocolate Cookies (made a batch this weekend)
Gender: Girl just because the clothes are cuter. But would be happy with a boy as well. DH wants a boy I think.
Labor Signs: Nope..Many weeks away from this.
What I miss: I think it's still the coffee. Though I did have a Decaf Mocha from starbucks this weekend. Yum.
What I am looking forward to: Having a real baby belly and telling people.
Weekly Wisdom: Eat smaller meals during the day vrs the big meals. It help with digestion.
Milestones: 1st ultrasound. Seeing and hearing the babies heartbeat via u/s.