So while I love being a mom I am having a bit of the baby blues. Maybe post partum depression but mostly a funk that I get when I am hormonal during my period. I feel like this heavy curtain of sadness is keeping me from being positive and making me feel really selfish. Not really making me feel selfish but is making me selfish. My BS tolerance is on the lowest level imaginable and I hate that I can't seem to force myself out of this funk. I am crying at leat 2-3 times a day over stupid stuff and I am just not patient with anybody but baby Sophia.
I think my fustration stems from this whole breastfeeding thing. While it's gotten easier for me I am still not producing enough milk for baby girl. I still have to supplement with formula and this makes me really fustratated. I have tried multiple natural remedies and nothing seems to be helping. Especailly at night when she is the super hungry. She can go through 6 oz of formula on top of getting milk from the boob. I started pumping after each session and I am only geting drops still. While can't I be a lucky one and produce a ton of milk. I hear stories of woman whohave a over production of milk. But me...with my large storage houses can't get enough even to satisfy her needs. So I cry a lot about that. Which I know isn't helping but I just had this vision that I would be enough for her and having to give her formula is just really getting to me. I guess this has to come from my stubborness and my need for prefection in every thing I do. This I know is unhealthy and the stress will only make it worse.
I am also going a little stir crazy sitting her waiting for her to wake up or to the next feeding. I never realized how my life would change in this respect. I know this is part of the package and I get that. But I ready for some of the fun stuff. Like her smiling, or her hugging me, or her actually needing more than just food from me. All I get at the current moment is change my diaper, feed me and sooth me from crying. So currently I sit and wait for the next feeding where I am being let down by my breasts. So it's a endless cyle.
The only good news to report is that I am 7.5 pounds away from my pre-pregancy weight. I have almost lost 30 pounds in a matter of two weeks. I am not trying of course but at least the little breastfeeding I am doing is helping me in this area. It's funny I am eating whatever I want and Sandro is insisting on me eating more to hopefully up my calorie intake. I am not a big eater anymore so food really doesn't sound appealing.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Sophia Genelle Juric has arrived. Natural Birth Story
The short version: Woke up to a ton mucus on the morning of October 15th at 3:00 a.m. Contractions began and my water broke about 3:30 a.m. I was already 5 cm dilated and my previous appointment the day before. I labored at home until 6:50 ish and then we went to the hospital. When I got to the the hospital I was 7 cm dilated stretched and fully effaced. I labored drug free until 12:00 or so with no progress. They started me on pitocin at the lowest level possible and I was dilated to 9 1/2 cm with in 1 hour 45 mins. I labored drug free and gave birth to Sophia at 2:40 pm. She weighed 8 pounds 2.8 ounces and was perfectly healthy.
Long Version:
At my 37 week appointment I was measuring 3 CM dilated 85% effaced. Which was a bit out of the norm for a first time mom. Then the next week I was measuring 4 CM dilated and 90% effaced. That next weekend I started laboring and I had gone to the hospital because the doctor told me I could have a fast delivery. I was just under 39 weeks so they admited me because I was dilated to 5 CM. The contractions stopped or weren't progressing. They offered to break my water but I really wanted to have a natural child birth and I knew if my water was broken unnaturally before it was time and the contractions did not increase that I would have to be induced. I was not ready for this. So I opted to go home. I ended up working from home for the majority of the week and try to relax and get some rest. I knew that this birth was about to begin and I really wanted to be ready mentally and physically.
On the Thursday morning at 3:00 a.m. I awoke to the largest amount of mucus I had ever seen. It looked like a screen from Ghostbusters. It just kept coming out. Then contractions started. They where not strong and were just very mild but regular. We used are practiced relaxation techniques and tried to sleep through them as I knew it could be false labor like below. Then I told DH that I felt like I just peed myself and I got up and ran to the toilet. He told me he heard the pop but I wasn't sure. I just felt like this huge leak had started and I was so anxious about laboring in bed. DH covered it was extra sheets and we continued on. Being that I was 5 cm from the previous appointment we thought we should go ahead and head to the hospital. In retrospect I wish I had waited a few more hours as I knew that I would be fine to labor from home even with my water broken for about 12 hours. Plus I was very relaxed and the contractions where not over the top. While they hurt, it wasn't as bad as I thought.
When we got to the hospital the checked me and I was 7 cm dilated stretched. I labored on and off being monitored for about 4 hours. It didn't seem that long but I guess I was. They started to push pitocin as if it was best for the baby and that I could stall out and I would have to have a caesarean. As a compromise I asked to labor one more hour without it. I was managed the pain just fine and I wasn't interested in intensifying this pain. Well they checked me again in a hour and it appeared I still wasn't progressing. I was disappointed because I didn't want to start pit but after talking with my DH we decided for just a small amount. To insure that I could stand and move around while I labored I had a internal monitor put on the baby's head. Not sure what exactly the term was for it but it allowed for me to move from the bed and move and sway like I was doing previously. They started me at a 1 and not even 5 mins into it the contractions intensified to whole other level. They went from every 3 to 5 mins to 2 mins and increased in length. It was so much pain and the nurse kept trying to increase the pit to level 2.
I begged her to wait and check me before she did because at the moment I was in so much pain and I was feeling the urge to push. Like I had to poop at that very moment. I had to negotiate yet again but I knew I was almost ready. She checked me about 1 hr and 20 mins after the pit started and you guessed it I was 9 1/2 CM dilated with only a small lip in the way. She told me to calm down and stay controlled and she called the Dr. My doctor was out of the office so I had to get the on call doctor. She got there 10 mins later and tried to move the lip and stretch me to a 10. She also tried to push to increase the pit on me but I told her no. I didn't want to do that. I got to 10 cm dilated and I felt this over need to poop. I held it the best I could. Then the pushing began. I was a little disappointed that I was only allow to give birth in one position. I really was planning on squatting and laboring on my side in a squat. I did not want to give birth in stir ups on my back. Being I had full control over my body and wasn't dopped up my legs where incredibly strong. They kept trying to hold my legs back but my body naturally went into defense mode and I was resisting and kicking the nurses off of me. They kept on giving me instructions and correcting me after each time I pushed and it was just pissing me off. I think because they are so used to woman getting a epidural and where woman has no control over their legs that they expected me just follow all the same procedures. The only thing that really got me pushing correctly (well to them) they tried the towel trick where someone held/provided resistance and told me to pull with all my might forcing me to push with the proper muscles in my back side. After pushing for about a hour and 45 mins baby girl made her appearance. She came out with one contraction and two separate pushes.
In order to finish up quickly they move the Pit to 2 and I delivered the placenta. Though Sandro tells me that the doctor pulled on the cord to assit. I didn't feel it but that freaked me out because I didn't want assistance as this can lead to retained tissue. While she was sewing she told me it looked like I had a third degree tear..but after she got in there it was only a second degree tear. I felt it all. While she started to sew me up I couldn't focus and kept moving. I just wanted to hold Sophia and I only got to hold her the once for what I felt like 5 secs. So I begged them to bring her back and I would let them sew me up. I was emotional and I wanted my baby. Maybe a bit of a drama queen. She was so beautiful...so alert. It was so touching and I felt so empowered and strong to make it through childbirth. So that part of the experience was there.
Things I learned about myself.
1) I am really strong and very proud of myself for taking care of myself through this pregnancy and for having the labor we planned.
2) I hate pitocin. It made my contractions so intense. I wish I didn't use it to get further along as it really made the end difficult for me to control.
3) Our next birth will not be in a hositpal. I would like to have a midwife and a at home birth or use a birthing center. There are so many procedures that have to be followed at a hospital and I left begging to leave and impatient with waiting on each procedure that had to be preformed. Also I hated not being about to push in a position that felt more natural. My legs hated being forced to stay this way.
4) While not everything went exactly as planned I felt so in control of the experience. With that I felt empowered.
5) I would have done it all again and I love being a mom.
So far I am still recovering. I am a little sore when I walk. Mainly I think my muscles got pulled out of their normal position. The bleeding has slowed down. I still can't poop regular yet. But overall it was a semi fast recovery. I am down about 18 pounds of the 33 I gained. I bet in about a week I feel better.
Being a mother is very challenging so far. Mainly because I am still learning what our child signals are and how to respond. Baby girl is very healthy but she is having a little problem not getting enough food. For the last two nights she has kept me up all night wanting food. While I breastfeed my milk hasn't fully come through...so in the evenings I am bone dry. I need the evenings to rest so I can start producing milk. Her weight was 15% less than it was at birth so the doctor has asked me to supplement formulla especially when she doesn't appear to be getting enough. While it disappointed me I think it's for the best and her health is the most important. She is a little tongue tied and if this continues we will have to look on getting this corrected. It doesn't hurt when I breastfeed..other than the inital latch ... it gets numb and I am learning to do other things while she is working. ;) But we are not sure if this is why she isn't getting enough. So we will have to wait and see.
Sorry for my super long update.
Here are some pics!
Long Version:
At my 37 week appointment I was measuring 3 CM dilated 85% effaced. Which was a bit out of the norm for a first time mom. Then the next week I was measuring 4 CM dilated and 90% effaced. That next weekend I started laboring and I had gone to the hospital because the doctor told me I could have a fast delivery. I was just under 39 weeks so they admited me because I was dilated to 5 CM. The contractions stopped or weren't progressing. They offered to break my water but I really wanted to have a natural child birth and I knew if my water was broken unnaturally before it was time and the contractions did not increase that I would have to be induced. I was not ready for this. So I opted to go home. I ended up working from home for the majority of the week and try to relax and get some rest. I knew that this birth was about to begin and I really wanted to be ready mentally and physically.
On the Thursday morning at 3:00 a.m. I awoke to the largest amount of mucus I had ever seen. It looked like a screen from Ghostbusters. It just kept coming out. Then contractions started. They where not strong and were just very mild but regular. We used are practiced relaxation techniques and tried to sleep through them as I knew it could be false labor like below. Then I told DH that I felt like I just peed myself and I got up and ran to the toilet. He told me he heard the pop but I wasn't sure. I just felt like this huge leak had started and I was so anxious about laboring in bed. DH covered it was extra sheets and we continued on. Being that I was 5 cm from the previous appointment we thought we should go ahead and head to the hospital. In retrospect I wish I had waited a few more hours as I knew that I would be fine to labor from home even with my water broken for about 12 hours. Plus I was very relaxed and the contractions where not over the top. While they hurt, it wasn't as bad as I thought.
When we got to the hospital the checked me and I was 7 cm dilated stretched. I labored on and off being monitored for about 4 hours. It didn't seem that long but I guess I was. They started to push pitocin as if it was best for the baby and that I could stall out and I would have to have a caesarean. As a compromise I asked to labor one more hour without it. I was managed the pain just fine and I wasn't interested in intensifying this pain. Well they checked me again in a hour and it appeared I still wasn't progressing. I was disappointed because I didn't want to start pit but after talking with my DH we decided for just a small amount. To insure that I could stand and move around while I labored I had a internal monitor put on the baby's head. Not sure what exactly the term was for it but it allowed for me to move from the bed and move and sway like I was doing previously. They started me at a 1 and not even 5 mins into it the contractions intensified to whole other level. They went from every 3 to 5 mins to 2 mins and increased in length. It was so much pain and the nurse kept trying to increase the pit to level 2.
I begged her to wait and check me before she did because at the moment I was in so much pain and I was feeling the urge to push. Like I had to poop at that very moment. I had to negotiate yet again but I knew I was almost ready. She checked me about 1 hr and 20 mins after the pit started and you guessed it I was 9 1/2 CM dilated with only a small lip in the way. She told me to calm down and stay controlled and she called the Dr. My doctor was out of the office so I had to get the on call doctor. She got there 10 mins later and tried to move the lip and stretch me to a 10. She also tried to push to increase the pit on me but I told her no. I didn't want to do that. I got to 10 cm dilated and I felt this over need to poop. I held it the best I could. Then the pushing began. I was a little disappointed that I was only allow to give birth in one position. I really was planning on squatting and laboring on my side in a squat. I did not want to give birth in stir ups on my back. Being I had full control over my body and wasn't dopped up my legs where incredibly strong. They kept trying to hold my legs back but my body naturally went into defense mode and I was resisting and kicking the nurses off of me. They kept on giving me instructions and correcting me after each time I pushed and it was just pissing me off. I think because they are so used to woman getting a epidural and where woman has no control over their legs that they expected me just follow all the same procedures. The only thing that really got me pushing correctly (well to them) they tried the towel trick where someone held/provided resistance and told me to pull with all my might forcing me to push with the proper muscles in my back side. After pushing for about a hour and 45 mins baby girl made her appearance. She came out with one contraction and two separate pushes.
In order to finish up quickly they move the Pit to 2 and I delivered the placenta. Though Sandro tells me that the doctor pulled on the cord to assit. I didn't feel it but that freaked me out because I didn't want assistance as this can lead to retained tissue. While she was sewing she told me it looked like I had a third degree tear..but after she got in there it was only a second degree tear. I felt it all. While she started to sew me up I couldn't focus and kept moving. I just wanted to hold Sophia and I only got to hold her the once for what I felt like 5 secs. So I begged them to bring her back and I would let them sew me up. I was emotional and I wanted my baby. Maybe a bit of a drama queen. She was so beautiful...so alert. It was so touching and I felt so empowered and strong to make it through childbirth. So that part of the experience was there.
Things I learned about myself.
1) I am really strong and very proud of myself for taking care of myself through this pregnancy and for having the labor we planned.
2) I hate pitocin. It made my contractions so intense. I wish I didn't use it to get further along as it really made the end difficult for me to control.
3) Our next birth will not be in a hositpal. I would like to have a midwife and a at home birth or use a birthing center. There are so many procedures that have to be followed at a hospital and I left begging to leave and impatient with waiting on each procedure that had to be preformed. Also I hated not being about to push in a position that felt more natural. My legs hated being forced to stay this way.
4) While not everything went exactly as planned I felt so in control of the experience. With that I felt empowered.
5) I would have done it all again and I love being a mom.
So far I am still recovering. I am a little sore when I walk. Mainly I think my muscles got pulled out of their normal position. The bleeding has slowed down. I still can't poop regular yet. But overall it was a semi fast recovery. I am down about 18 pounds of the 33 I gained. I bet in about a week I feel better.
Being a mother is very challenging so far. Mainly because I am still learning what our child signals are and how to respond. Baby girl is very healthy but she is having a little problem not getting enough food. For the last two nights she has kept me up all night wanting food. While I breastfeed my milk hasn't fully come through...so in the evenings I am bone dry. I need the evenings to rest so I can start producing milk. Her weight was 15% less than it was at birth so the doctor has asked me to supplement formulla especially when she doesn't appear to be getting enough. While it disappointed me I think it's for the best and her health is the most important. She is a little tongue tied and if this continues we will have to look on getting this corrected. It doesn't hurt when I breastfeed..other than the inital latch ... it gets numb and I am learning to do other things while she is working. ;) But we are not sure if this is why she isn't getting enough. So we will have to wait and see.
Sorry for my super long update.
Here are some pics!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Weekly Post
How far along? 38 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 33 pounds. Last appointment I went down a pound from the previous weeks appointment.
Sleep: Some nights I sleep like a rock. I still use the restroom sometimes several times a night. But I still manage to fall asleep.
Best moment this week: Really feeling like I am about done with the nursery. We have one item left to get but it will take about a week to get here. It should help with the storage problem I have been having. I was so nice to see a the room in a almost finished state. Looks at pictures to the right. They are in my slideshow.
Movement: Movements are less but I think it has to do with her size. She loves to kick my bladder though. I have to poke her to stop sometimes I think that just makes her kick me harder. She is smart like that!
Food cravings: Pumpkin Pie. I went out and bought all the ingredients. I managed to eat three pieces yesterday. Whoops! :) It was so good. It least it has fiber!
Labor Signs: Per my 37 wk Dr's appointment I am progressing. 3 cm dilated 80% effaced
What I miss:I think I am missing my mom and girl time. No offense to Sandro it's a bit hard for me to admit but sometimes I wish I had a cool chick to hang out with or someone to shop with who actually liked to shopped. Sandro is sorta anti shopping.
What I am looking forward to: Meeting our baby girl in 2-4 weeks.
Weekly Wisdom: Even if you a dilating it does not mean that your baby is coming early. You can stay in the same position for several weeks. Most first time pregnancies are 42 weeks on average.
Milestones:I have one big milestone left and that is delivering our baby...or getting to the estimated delivery date.
All together!
Total weight gain/loss: Up 33 pounds. Last appointment I went down a pound from the previous weeks appointment.
Sleep: Some nights I sleep like a rock. I still use the restroom sometimes several times a night. But I still manage to fall asleep.
Best moment this week: Really feeling like I am about done with the nursery. We have one item left to get but it will take about a week to get here. It should help with the storage problem I have been having. I was so nice to see a the room in a almost finished state. Looks at pictures to the right. They are in my slideshow.
Movement: Movements are less but I think it has to do with her size. She loves to kick my bladder though. I have to poke her to stop sometimes I think that just makes her kick me harder. She is smart like that!
Food cravings: Pumpkin Pie. I went out and bought all the ingredients. I managed to eat three pieces yesterday. Whoops! :) It was so good. It least it has fiber!
Labor Signs: Per my 37 wk Dr's appointment I am progressing. 3 cm dilated 80% effaced
What I miss:I think I am missing my mom and girl time. No offense to Sandro it's a bit hard for me to admit but sometimes I wish I had a cool chick to hang out with or someone to shop with who actually liked to shopped. Sandro is sorta anti shopping.
What I am looking forward to: Meeting our baby girl in 2-4 weeks.
Weekly Wisdom: Even if you a dilating it does not mean that your baby is coming early. You can stay in the same position for several weeks. Most first time pregnancies are 42 weeks on average.
Milestones:I have one big milestone left and that is delivering our baby...or getting to the estimated delivery date.
Me at 37 weeks. I was too lazy to take a picture for 38 wk..
Sandro working on our wall decal. Took him a hour to finish it. It came our prefect.
A finished project. Can you tell how these where made? Lets just say it costs me less than $20 dollars.
All together!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
What I want isn't always what I get
Over the past several weeks I have been attending a Bradley Method Childbirth class. Sandro has been going with me and we are learning a ton. Sandro has really been good about learning his role as my partner and coach for the birthing process. He prepares me food and make sure I am eating a proper diet. He feels that it's his ultimate responsibility to get me through this birth. I appreciate this of course and I am so HAPPY to have a supportive partner. I think what I am finding difficult is setting myself up for failure. I always seem to have an ideal of how I want things to happen. It's the control aspect of my overwhelming personality. It something doesn't go right in my plans I feel this dramatic feeling that I failed. So what I am trying to do is focus all of my attention on being positive and just letting it happen. I want a natural childbirth and I will try my hardest to get through this but I need to focus on making sure I realize that not everything will go as planned..and if it doesn't go as planned then this is okay, and that I and baby girl is going to be just fine. I tried to explain this to Sandro and I think he gets it but then again he tells me that he will do it all. That I will get my ideal birth. But I don't think this is helping. I need to accept the fact that I don't always get what I want and if my ideal doesn't happen we will be okay.
Also, I am having trouble finding names for baby girl. I can't understand why I am having so many difficulties. All I remember growing up was wanting to name my baby Felicia (if it's a girl) and Frisco (if it's a boy)... can you tell that I had a love for General Hospital. But now years later I don't like any name I am hearing and I am just NOT in love with it. Sandro also seems to have a opinion on any name I sorta like. So it makes it even more difficult. I just don't want our daughter to hate us for the name we choose for her. I want it to have meaning and be short and beautiful. I have looked for hours and I just haven't found that name. 25 days to go and you would think I had a few in mind. I just keep reminding myself that my MIL took a month to name Sandro...I can met babygirl first and then decide.
So here is what I have on my to do list. I am hoping I can get most of these things accomplished this weekend. I want to get to point where I can relax and not stress about the small stuff. I finally picked a bouncer for baby girl. It's nothing uber fancy but I love that it has green and lady bugs. :)
To Do List:
Clean Cars
Install and practice with Carseat
Returns of dups from babyshower
Deep Clean House (including renting carpet shampoo machine)
Wash baby stuff
Wall mount the baby monitor
Wall Sign needs to be put up
Clean Out Garage
Items I need for Nursery:
Trash Can/Wastebasket
Hamper
Decorative wall shelfs
Batteries (Rechargeable or regular) Tons of C's and D's
Items on Target Registry (changing pad, changing cover, extra car seat base, bottles and a few misc breastfeeding items)
Purchase Birthing Ball
Need some wall frames for new project I want to do
Ebay items:
Need travel baby monitor .. not urgent
Also, I am having trouble finding names for baby girl. I can't understand why I am having so many difficulties. All I remember growing up was wanting to name my baby Felicia (if it's a girl) and Frisco (if it's a boy)... can you tell that I had a love for General Hospital. But now years later I don't like any name I am hearing and I am just NOT in love with it. Sandro also seems to have a opinion on any name I sorta like. So it makes it even more difficult. I just don't want our daughter to hate us for the name we choose for her. I want it to have meaning and be short and beautiful. I have looked for hours and I just haven't found that name. 25 days to go and you would think I had a few in mind. I just keep reminding myself that my MIL took a month to name Sandro...I can met babygirl first and then decide.
So here is what I have on my to do list. I am hoping I can get most of these things accomplished this weekend. I want to get to point where I can relax and not stress about the small stuff. I finally picked a bouncer for baby girl. It's nothing uber fancy but I love that it has green and lady bugs. :)
To Do List:
Clean Cars
Install and practice with Carseat
Returns of dups from babyshower
Deep Clean House (including renting carpet shampoo machine)
Wash baby stuff
Wall mount the baby monitor
Wall Sign needs to be put up
Clean Out Garage
Items I need for Nursery:
Trash Can/Wastebasket
Hamper
Decorative wall shelfs
Batteries (Rechargeable or regular) Tons of C's and D's
Items on Target Registry (changing pad, changing cover, extra car seat base, bottles and a few misc breastfeeding items)
Purchase Birthing Ball
Need some wall frames for new project I want to do
Ebay items:
Need travel baby monitor .. not urgent
Monday, September 21, 2009
How far along? 36 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 28 per last Dr. Appointment. (yeah I didn't gain at the last appointment..the first time for me..I am SURE I gained this time though.
Sleep: Sleeping pretty good most nights. However, my body has made an official stance of not sleeping on my back or my belly. It has to be on the side or it will hurt. Of course you really shouldn't be sleeping on your back at this stage so who ever said that your body will tell you...was telling the truth. I switch sides when I get up to use the restroom.
Best moment this week: Finishing some projects and celebrating our 3 year anniversary.
Movement: I love to watch her move. It's not a constant feeling but when she moves you know it's her. It's so cool to see the belly move. I secretly love that she really will only do it when it's me and (sometimes her daddy) is in the room. Every time my mom or my MIL try to feel it she stops. :) I know I am evil. I just think it's like something she just chooses to share with me. Wish I could get it on tape at least once though so my mom can see it.
Food cravings: Still no crazy pregnancy cravings. I will filling out the baby book and they have this long section to include cravings. All I had was chipolte and milk. There has to be something strange I want.
Labor Signs: Nope..(4 more weeks)
What I miss: I guess having that endless amount of energy. Now I am pooped from just taking pictures. We had hearts and hammers and I wasn't permitted to do anything by watch and take pictures and be a water girl. But that afternoon after we out there for 6 hours..I took a 2 hour nap and didn't want to move from the couch. I was that whipped.
What I am looking forward to: Still trying to finish some last minute projects for the nursery and actually feel done. Also, my MIL has volunteered to help deep clean my house. I am totally cool with that since I can't really do it myself.
Weekly Wisdom: There is great spray (which is witch hazel and some other essential oils) that work very well for swollen private areas. I didn't think it would help me much. It's called New Mama Bottom Spray. It's awesome. The combination of this and tucks are making me feel a little better these last few weeks.
Milestones: Technically baby is full term. Of course I want her to stay in there until she is good and ready. I feel like I am at a real big milestone and so much relief knowing that if she decided to make her appearance today she should be okay.
Finished product with the rocking chair.
Total weight gain/loss: Up 28 per last Dr. Appointment. (yeah I didn't gain at the last appointment..the first time for me..I am SURE I gained this time though.
Sleep: Sleeping pretty good most nights. However, my body has made an official stance of not sleeping on my back or my belly. It has to be on the side or it will hurt. Of course you really shouldn't be sleeping on your back at this stage so who ever said that your body will tell you...was telling the truth. I switch sides when I get up to use the restroom.
Best moment this week: Finishing some projects and celebrating our 3 year anniversary.
Movement: I love to watch her move. It's not a constant feeling but when she moves you know it's her. It's so cool to see the belly move. I secretly love that she really will only do it when it's me and (sometimes her daddy) is in the room. Every time my mom or my MIL try to feel it she stops. :) I know I am evil. I just think it's like something she just chooses to share with me. Wish I could get it on tape at least once though so my mom can see it.
Food cravings: Still no crazy pregnancy cravings. I will filling out the baby book and they have this long section to include cravings. All I had was chipolte and milk. There has to be something strange I want.
Labor Signs: Nope..(4 more weeks)
What I miss: I guess having that endless amount of energy. Now I am pooped from just taking pictures. We had hearts and hammers and I wasn't permitted to do anything by watch and take pictures and be a water girl. But that afternoon after we out there for 6 hours..I took a 2 hour nap and didn't want to move from the couch. I was that whipped.
What I am looking forward to: Still trying to finish some last minute projects for the nursery and actually feel done. Also, my MIL has volunteered to help deep clean my house. I am totally cool with that since I can't really do it myself.
Weekly Wisdom: There is great spray (which is witch hazel and some other essential oils) that work very well for swollen private areas. I didn't think it would help me much. It's called New Mama Bottom Spray. It's awesome. The combination of this and tucks are making me feel a little better these last few weeks.
Milestones: Technically baby is full term. Of course I want her to stay in there until she is good and ready. I feel like I am at a real big milestone and so much relief knowing that if she decided to make her appearance today she should be okay.
Project Started and Completed Yesterday..before Shot
Side note. This ottoman has been in the family for 2 generations. It originally belonged to my great grandmother.
Sandro removing the legs and the ugly blue dirty fabric. Apollo is observing.
I cleaned and used some wood polish on the legs. Wasn't a huge improvement but it does look better.
No fabric on the ottoman and no legs. (except for Apollo's)
Side note. This ottoman has been in the family for 2 generations. It originally belonged to my great grandmother.
Sandro removing the legs and the ugly blue dirty fabric. Apollo is observing.
I cleaned and used some wood polish on the legs. Wasn't a huge improvement but it does look better.
No fabric on the ottoman and no legs. (except for Apollo's)
Close up of Finished product. Norma sent us some great fabric. Sandro is so freaking handy and did a excellent job of making sure that the staples and everything else was prefect.
Finished product with the rocking chair.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Weekly Update
How far along? 35 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 28 per last Dr. Appointment. (yeah I didn't gain at the last appointment..the first time for me..I am SURE I gained this time though.
Sleep: Sleeping pretty good most nights. It does help that Sandro gives me a massages in my achy parts. (Feet, back, shoulders, tummy) He just ask what needs massaging today.
Best moment this week: The terrific shower(s) that where given to me. I feel so loved.
Movement: She moves around like crazy. Sometimes it sorta hurts and she is now in different parts of the body that I didn't think was possible.
Food cravings: No overwhelming cravings. I am looking forward to when I can eat as much pizza as I want without getting sick to my stomach.
Labor Signs: Nope..(5 more weeks)
What I miss: For everyone not to think that I am crippled and can't do what normal people do. Yeah I may be get tired but I can walk and do things I did before I was pregnant. Just not as quick.
What I am looking forward to: Being completely done with the nursery. I still have a few remaining things to purchase and some wall decorating to do.
Weekly Wisdom: Talk to your significant other about how you are doing and don't hold back just because you are trying so spare their feelings. Not communicating just makes it difficult for all those involved.
Milestones: One more week until being full term. From what I read all baby is doing now is gaining weight. Gain baby...gain baby...(just don't gain to much you here)
I think I am getting into the difficult stage of pregnancy being in the home stretch and all. Each day I am noticing a new issue with my body and I am just not feeling pretty anymore. When I was overweight I never really had any aches and pains so this is all a new experience for me. I can list my laundry list of complaints but I find that it doesn't really help at all. Lets just say I have to keep reminding myself that babygirl is just renting me out at the moment and will be vacating soon. Just have to pushing through and not let these things get to me. Sandro is trying desperately to make sure I feel pretty and make me feel loved so I just need to keep as positive as I can during this last month.
This weekend the shower was amazing that my SIL and MIL hosted for me. I had so many friends, family and coworkers come out and enjoy Croatian home style cooking. I haven't laughed and smiled that much in weeks. It was a full house and I am so thank full that so many people have so much love for babygirl. For a minute there I felt all my aliments disappear. I really appreciate all the love I felt and it was truly unforgettable for me.
Quilt #3 .. I can switch these out. They are so amazingly cute.
I think this bag holds all the quilts. It's really pretty as well.
Total weight gain/loss: Up 28 per last Dr. Appointment. (yeah I didn't gain at the last appointment..the first time for me..I am SURE I gained this time though.
Sleep: Sleeping pretty good most nights. It does help that Sandro gives me a massages in my achy parts. (Feet, back, shoulders, tummy) He just ask what needs massaging today.
Best moment this week: The terrific shower(s) that where given to me. I feel so loved.
Movement: She moves around like crazy. Sometimes it sorta hurts and she is now in different parts of the body that I didn't think was possible.
Food cravings: No overwhelming cravings. I am looking forward to when I can eat as much pizza as I want without getting sick to my stomach.
Labor Signs: Nope..(5 more weeks)
What I miss: For everyone not to think that I am crippled and can't do what normal people do. Yeah I may be get tired but I can walk and do things I did before I was pregnant. Just not as quick.
What I am looking forward to: Being completely done with the nursery. I still have a few remaining things to purchase and some wall decorating to do.
Weekly Wisdom: Talk to your significant other about how you are doing and don't hold back just because you are trying so spare their feelings. Not communicating just makes it difficult for all those involved.
Milestones: One more week until being full term. From what I read all baby is doing now is gaining weight. Gain baby...gain baby...(just don't gain to much you here)
I think I am getting into the difficult stage of pregnancy being in the home stretch and all. Each day I am noticing a new issue with my body and I am just not feeling pretty anymore. When I was overweight I never really had any aches and pains so this is all a new experience for me. I can list my laundry list of complaints but I find that it doesn't really help at all. Lets just say I have to keep reminding myself that babygirl is just renting me out at the moment and will be vacating soon. Just have to pushing through and not let these things get to me. Sandro is trying desperately to make sure I feel pretty and make me feel loved so I just need to keep as positive as I can during this last month.
This weekend the shower was amazing that my SIL and MIL hosted for me. I had so many friends, family and coworkers come out and enjoy Croatian home style cooking. I haven't laughed and smiled that much in weeks. It was a full house and I am so thank full that so many people have so much love for babygirl. For a minute there I felt all my aliments disappear. I really appreciate all the love I felt and it was truly unforgettable for me.
Picture of the week taken 09/15
Unfortunately my Stepmother Norma and Dad couldn't make it to the shower. But they did send me some amazing quilts all hand crafted by Norma herself. They where beautiful! 
Quilt # 2..She even put made especially for babyjuric on each of them. It was so cute.
Quilt # 2..She even put made especially for babyjuric on each of them. It was so cute.
Quilt #3 .. I can switch these out. They are so amazingly cute.
I think this bag holds all the quilts. It's really pretty as well.
She also made a tun of burp clothes that will come in real handy. Love them. 
New quilt on crib...with mobile. (Still have a ton of work to do in the room I feel like)
New quilt on crib...with mobile. (Still have a ton of work to do in the room I feel like)
Monday, September 7, 2009
Weekly Update
How far along? 34 Weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Up 28 per last Dr. Appointment.
Stretch marks? Decided this question will be removed next week. Seems a bit redundant. Either you have them or you don't.
Sleep: Sleeping has improved a little. But she wakes me up rather early.
Best moment this week: Seeing all the beautiful maternity pictures. They turned out fab.
Movement: She is very active at the oddest times. But I can just watch her for hours.
Food cravings: The milk craving has died down somewhat. But I can only stomach smaller meals. How does that work? Eating less and looking bigger? I can't grasp that!
Labor Signs: Nope..(6 more weeks)
What I miss: Having all that energy. I can work really hard for about 1 hour then I am flat out tried as could be.
What I am looking forward to: My mom visiting this week for the shower. She hasn't been here for a while. I have been sorta down about that.
Weekly Wisdom: Organizing can make a world of difference on how you feel about your home.
Milestones: Two weeks away from being full term. (well full term in the respect I could pop at any time saftely) Man...it's nearing so fast.
Instead of Sandro and I being incredibly irresponsible with our money this month we decided not to take a last minute trip to decompress over the weekend. We spent the last three days cleaning and organizing the house. Below I have posted a few before and after pictures. We finished all 4 closests and only have the garage still to go. It's way to hot to tackle that project.
Total weight gain/loss: Up 28 per last Dr. Appointment.
Stretch marks? Decided this question will be removed next week. Seems a bit redundant. Either you have them or you don't.
Sleep: Sleeping has improved a little. But she wakes me up rather early.
Best moment this week: Seeing all the beautiful maternity pictures. They turned out fab.
Movement: She is very active at the oddest times. But I can just watch her for hours.
Food cravings: The milk craving has died down somewhat. But I can only stomach smaller meals. How does that work? Eating less and looking bigger? I can't grasp that!
Labor Signs: Nope..(6 more weeks)
What I miss: Having all that energy. I can work really hard for about 1 hour then I am flat out tried as could be.
What I am looking forward to: My mom visiting this week for the shower. She hasn't been here for a while. I have been sorta down about that.
Weekly Wisdom: Organizing can make a world of difference on how you feel about your home.
Milestones: Two weeks away from being full term. (well full term in the respect I could pop at any time saftely) Man...it's nearing so fast.
Instead of Sandro and I being incredibly irresponsible with our money this month we decided not to take a last minute trip to decompress over the weekend. We spent the last three days cleaning and organizing the house. Below I have posted a few before and after pictures. We finished all 4 closests and only have the garage still to go. It's way to hot to tackle that project.
Sporting a new cut.
The purple outfit that MIL made
New Artwork
Hall Closet Before
Hall Closet After
Bedroom Closet Before
Bedroom Closet After
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