The unexpected.

Because I want to wait until I am past my 1st Dr. Appointment on December 1st I have created a blog that I plan to write in...even with small notes as patiently wait. To begin, Sandro and I where not technically trying to have a baby yet. We had had decided to wait another year. I have been using the FAM method as protection for over a year. This is basically a charting method. My body responds badly to birth control so FAM worked really nicely for me. I am not going to blame failure of getting pregnant on this method because I don't think it was a failed method. Honestly, I think my body and heart took matters into it's own hands. During the weeks before we found out I was having crazy pregnancies dreams. Also my cervical fluids where insane. I think my body and my heart wanted to have a baby...also I am sure with Sandro's determination that he wanted a child as well. So guess what ... we are pregnant.

At first I suspected something was a miss. I was like a time clock, I always start my period every 28 days...I have temperature shift downward at day 26...and then my period will begin two days later. So Sunday morning I took my temp as normal. High..a degree higher than usually..the same temp as the day before...so I had a old pg test under my sink I POAS. At first nothing was showing up...but I was closely watching...so I decided to lay back down for about 10 minutes...I come back to two pink lines. I was like WTF. Then I had to run to Target and get a few more...I got the name brand (with a coupon) and the generic. Came home and took the EPT at home. Not even two minutes later I get the same result as the previous one with clear distinct blue crossed lines. So of course I don't believe it so I go for a 3 and final time. Again instance results. Two blue lines. I have a picture I will put in here later. It's kinda of funny. I can't muster up the nerve to toss them just yet. They are still sitting there.

So already I am worrywart. I drank both on Thursday and Saturday. Equal to two beers and a shot. But still...I had no idea. Then I had coffee all weekend. Today is decided to give up my morning cup of Joe for a while. At least through first trimester. I feel like I am hungover and really just exhausted. Not sure if this is to the lack of caffeine or just my pregnancies symptoms coming through. I already started my prenatal vitamins and scheduled my initial appointments. I will have a sonogram on December 1st ($250 dollars wow!) and then a Dr. Appointment on December 16th. Both at 3:30. That seems to so far away. But thanksgiving would be my 8th week so they said it's best to wait until after that. Sandro is so excited. I am just praying for a healthy baby and pregnancy. Sandro and I have decided not to tell anybody, even close family, until after the first appointment. That is a long time to keep it a secret. But I would rather not worry about having a miscarriage and having to explain to everyone what happened. So overall...this will be a place they can read about what happened and about nerves going crazy.