Holy Moly New Symptoms

Today I have been an emotional rollercasters. One second completely calm another second angry and irritated. Also I am feeling a bit sea sick like I have been on a boat for hours. I look like a hot mess and I am feeling pretty sick of working at the moment. My customers are completely getting under my skin today. Sandro and I also got into a tiff this morning and I am just feeling cranky in general. I haven't been this cranky in awhile. I think I just need a long nap and work to be over for today.

Also, I tasted like a metal taste in my mouth this morning. That is definitely not normal at all.

Week 6

I am doing okay so far. My boobs are pretty achy and I am tad on the emotional side. But nothing out of the ordinary. This week is the most critical week since this is when I had the loss last time. Lets just hope that the babies heartbeat is starting or has already started. I am trying to think as positive as possible. 2 more weeks to the sonogram.

Here is what is going on with baby this week. Click here for more info.

My Heart Belongs to You!
The first heartbeats have begun! The baby is now an embryo and is about 1/17 of an inch long. Growth is very rapid this week. The umbilical cord develops. The eyes and ears begin to form as well as an opening for the mouth. The heart has begun to pump blood and most of the other organs are well under construction. Buds form on the body that will become the arms and legs.

Sandro's Clever Convo

So Sandro was telling this conversation he has with one of his coworkers:

Coworker: So how is that bride of yours?
Sandro: She is great.
Coworker:Having any babies yet?
Sandro: We are working on that!
Coworker: **Blushing*** That's awesome.

(I think the coworker got a little embarrassed by Sandro's response.)

Sandro is doing very well about keeping this pregnancy under wrapped. Completely respecting me wish to keep it extremely private, at least until we hear a heartbeat, but really I don't want to tell anybody outside the immediate family until after the 1st trimester. It really is extremely difficult to have to (un)tell people. Last time he got a little trigger happy and all his coworkers knew about it. This time he realizes why it's so important to be low key at least into we get to see the doctor for the first time.

How I am feeling: Nipples are on fire right now. I think they are worse this pregnancy. Two days straight. Wearing clothes actually make it worse. I wish I could just hang around naked or something. No puking (thank God) but a do have more intense hunger that didn't really get last time. Hungry all the time. Trying to have healthy snacks around.

Week 5 - Hormones are funny

So today I am feeling a bit of pain in my boobies. They are extremely tender and I am not lying when I say they grew at least once size up this weekend alone. They look like inflated balloons or something. While this is happening I am extremely emotional and I start crying over just about anything. I decided not to even bother with make up since the tears where overwhelming this morning. My bosses sister died of ovarian cancer. I feel so horrible for her.

On another note Sandro hid the BBT last night. You would think that I would get better sleep but my body had another idea in mind. I went to the restroom 4 or 5 times last night..once every hour after midnight. Luckily I was able to go back to sleep fairly quickly.

So today marks 5 weeks..(3 more weeks to the first appointment)

Notes on what is happening with baby this week. Taken from here.

The developing embryo has three layers. In the top layer (ectoderm), the neural tube will form which will further develop into the nervous system (brain, spinal cord, skin and hair). In the middle layer (mesoderm), the heart and circulatory system, bones, muscles, kidneys and reproductive organs will develop - eventually. At this stage, however, the heart and primitive circulatory system will rapidly form. In fact, the circulatory system is the first organ system to function. In the inner layer (endoderm), a simple tube will develop into the intestines, liver, pancreas and bladder.

Must hide the BBT

I think it's time to put the BBT away. This morning I had a little drop but really I should just discard it. I had got up at 3 to pee and the dogs woke me up at 5...so that's only 2 hours of sleep (should be 3-4 hours)...The first time I woke up I was so groggy I didn't think about temping..but I really feeling sick and need to go bad. I also had a bad dream I think. So when the dogs woke me up at 5 I tempted and it was 98. Which is way above the cover line but it's causing me to be super paranoid since my temp was 98.42 yesterday. Everyone I have chatted with told me to stop temping..especailly after the LMP (longest menstural period) well it's hard to tell when that is for me..since after the m/c my cycle was 32 or 33 days...well today marks 34. But before the m/c I was always 28 days..and my drop would happen on cycle day 27. I did ovulate a few days later than normal....so it's hard to tell. They also say to stop temping because hormones will make your temps go up and down...and charting makes you crazy...Overall..I am trying to keep positive and not dwell so much on what could happen.

Here are few mantra's from the Sucess After Loss board:

• "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."
• "I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise."
• "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
• "Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot ‘jinx’ your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!
• And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."

POAS Queen

So I had to pee on the stick just one more time. Clearly I am crazy. You will notice the most fantastic pink line. It's super dark which my hormones are steadily high. I know this already apparent due to my boobs already growing a full size up. But I have to have validation. Just call me the POAS queen.
For the record my temperature continues on going up steadily. I will probably stop temping on CD40 which is coming up in another week. Then I will post my final chart. Unrelated to baby...look at the lovely roses I got from Sandro for Vday. What a sweetie.

The Cupcake Debacle

So last night I went out of my way to make from scratch (organic) chocolate cupcakes with from scratch cream cheese frosting. I even had to stop at Costco to go get butter. I slave away at making them. Cleaned the kitchen a few times during the different stages of making cupcakes. My feet and back hurt I was exhausted, however I already committed to making them. I even had some pink cupcakes and some white cupcakes. As soon as I was finished I passed out because I was so tried.
This morning I drag them into work. All arranged nicely and ready for people to indulge. Then I see I my HR lady carrying very suspicious white boxes. Can you guess what she brought in as well? Cupcakes from Sam's. They even have a pink ring and sprinkles and really make my cupcakes look sad. I should have pictures soon but my phone isn't cooperating. I guess you can say next year I will opt out of making any goodies. Sandro also brought several to his work. He told me that his coworkers loved them. So that makes me feel a little better. :(

The Science Part

My chart so far...

How to interrupt this lovely chart.
1) The dotted line indicates where I forgot to temp.
2) The hallow dots on the graph are when I temped at a different time out of the norm. This is usually the weekends or when I have been woken up.
3) The CM represents when I had my period and when I had Eggwhite or Wet that is used for baby making. The dashes represent when I noticed spotting. This could have been implantation.
4) The green boxes under stats shows when they think I ovulate, however you will notice I ovulated one day later than usual.
6) The red crossbars represent where I ovulated. It also shows the coverline.
7) Your temperature should always stay above the coverline.
5) As you can see the pattern is slowly going upwards this last couple of weeks. Ending with the highest temp today. I tend to go up in down in temp but it still shows a consistent pattern.

Overall this graph looks good. It does appear to look very similar to the last time I was PG. Which is a good sign. Here is a picture of two charts together and you can see how they are similar. It's amazing how much you can learn from your body by simply measuring your temperature. I have 12 months of data stored away from when I was temping to avoid. It really has had some benefits to us getting pg so easily. The biggest annoyance is being woken up in the middle of the night or just being lazy and not temping. But overall it's really easy and I love knowing exactly where I am within my cycle.

Just reading your blogs and loving it, love you too!!

Mimi2

Coffee Challenge & Symptoms

I think the hardest thing I have to do is give up coffee again. I started limiting it a while ago and usually have about 8 oz a day (if that)...I used to have like 16 oz or more. Everything I read says it leads to miscarriages. I already bought me some decaffeinated beans for the weekend but work is going to be hard since the coffee machine is next to my desk and is also brewing coffee. Sigh. I will have to use the taper off method this time. Mainly because I don't think I can do it all at on once. It gave me the worst headache.

On a side note..all my symptoms are reappearing in stages. The bloat, the exhaustion, the gas...and I feel the dreaded constipation coming back to haunt me. I am not complaining or anything since I am so excited. While I don't know for sure that I can carry the baby to term it makes me feel wonderful to know that I can in fact get pg. Lots of women have problems with this. Takes years (and a lot of money) for them to get pg and then they miscarry.

I am trying to stay as positive as possible. Not think of what could happen. God has a plan for me and I am just going to let life take it's course. It's truly a journey. I hope one day I can show our little one this blog and they can feel connected to me in some way.

Well I couldn't make it too the 14th DPO.

However, 13 most be my lucky number. Clearly I am pg! Praying this isn't a chemical pregnancy or anything..but I have a really good feeling after seeing these two tests.

Tested Again

Still Faint this morning..but I am going with that it's still too early and it was only 12 hours between testing. I decided to hide my pg tests and plan to test on Wednesday with a digital. I am trying to remain as positive as I can. :)

Is that a line I see?

Lets just hope that this is a positive sign. I will test on a digital in a few days to confirm. :) Sandro and I are so excited. Click on the images to get a better view of the lines.
It's faint...the top one hasn't been tested on do you can compare.


This one is the CVS one..you can see the faint blue line.

The dreaded 2WW

For some reason the below ticker is incorrect. I am only 7 DPO which means I have 5-6 days to go before I can test...even this it will be a early test. I am not sure when my period will start. I am thinking of testing this Sunday...which would make me 11 DPO..but this may be a tad to early. My cycle has always be 28 days so if my temp is still high on Sunday I will probably test. Ideally I would like to test on Feb 14th but I don't want to make it a sad day. I guess we will just have to wait and see.

All I can say is that it seems like this whole process is taking forever. I just have to remember that it will happen when it happens.