How far along? 10 wks 6 days
Total weight gain/loss: When I last went to the doctor I had gained 6 pounds.
Maternity clothes? Same as last week. The jeans I live in when I can. But the other pants are bit annoying and just make me feel fat.
Stretch marks? Not any new ones yet.
Sleep: My dreams are vivid like crazy. Always a different dream every night. Last night it was about the ocean and waves and some sort of presentation.
Best moment this week: The spotting completely stopped
Movement: Nada
Food cravings: Food has been hard since I am craving the most awful things. The heartburn is terrible so I can't indulge. Last night I kept thinking about Taco Bell's Seven layer burrito. I literally haven't had one of those in 8 years. But the combination of the ingredients sound appealing. Oh and I know I won't act on this craving because Sandro is adamantly against fast food of all kinds. Perhaps I can sneak to get one at lunch. To bad it's cold outside.
Gender: At this point just a healthy baby.
Labor Signs: Nope..Many weeks away from this.
What I miss: I miss eating and enjoying it. I feel good for like 5 mins and then instant heartburn erupts.
What I am looking forward to: Seeing the baby this Thursday and checking on the hematoma.
Weekly Wisdom: It's okay to be lazy during pregnancy. Don't overdo yourself.
Milestones: No Spotting. Got over the double digit week mark.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
Sprinkle Cupcake
One of my coworkers is the sincerely the nicest person I have ever met. Mom ...if you are reading this...she is the chick that came over for baking lessons for Christmas. Hedy just came in and brought me a lemon cupcake from this placed called Sprinkles. The cupcakes aren't cheap and really it's out of your way to get these cupcakes. Often having to wait in lines. She told me yesterday she was going to get one for Stefan and myself. I have always wanted to try one (my own cupcake) since I only had one bite of Stefan's once. I wasn't impressed then but it was one bite and I didn't get to actually enjoy it. Lets just say it's a awesome way to start off my Friday. I think the baby will enjoy it.
Also..no spotting so far today. I had such a little amount yesterday I don't think I should even count it. :) I hope this is a good sign.
Update: So the cupcake was delicious but it gave me the worse indigestion of my life. So I tried to counteract this belly ache buy getting sushi. Well It worked for like 5 mins and now my stomach was in complete turmoil. I think this is a new symptom for me...or a old one resurfacing. Everything I eat I get a belly ache now. Sigh. I feel like crawling into a hole right now and not coming out.
Also..no spotting so far today. I had such a little amount yesterday I don't think I should even count it. :) I hope this is a good sign.
Update: So the cupcake was delicious but it gave me the worse indigestion of my life. So I tried to counteract this belly ache buy getting sushi. Well It worked for like 5 mins and now my stomach was in complete turmoil. I think this is a new symptom for me...or a old one resurfacing. Everything I eat I get a belly ache now. Sigh. I feel like crawling into a hole right now and not coming out.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
10 Weeks w/picture
So I debated about posting this picture because I really not liking my body right now. I am scared of the possible reactions. For one I am wearing a cami under this shirt to help the girls since they are so massive. Two you can see my pooch. The thing I don't get is why some people say that if you are larger you don't see much growth in the first fews months. But I am not sure if that really applies to me. I was at a semi healthy weight for my height. Just under 200 pounds. I can tell you that my boobs grew at least 2 sizes. Before I was a 38D and now I am getting near a 40DD. The outfit I am wearing are regular clothes. The black pants are still lose on me. The only difference is my stomach doesn't want to stay back when I suck in. For those who remember I was avid about working out. In the last year alone I lost close to 40 ish pounds. I was going great with my eating plan and my exercise plan. I know before getting pregnant that I would gain weight. But in this picture I just look like I let myself go again. When I weighed at the doctor I was about 208 ish. I think that at least half of that is bloat and the other half is the weight gain in my breasts.
So today marks 10 weeks. The spotting is very minimal yesterday and today. So minimal if you weren't paying any attention you would even notice. It's a small amount of brown. Maybe this could be the end to all the blood clot drama. Other symptoms I have right now is that I have noticeable indigestion. I have never been the belching type. But now it's completely expected after I eat. On top of that tummy just grumbles all the time. Sometimes in the morning I am nauseous. I have a ton of snacks at my desk to help me between meals. It looks like snack central. When I start to feel light headed or a rumble I grab a small snack.
At 10 weeks the embryo becomes a fetus. Here is what happening with baby this week.
So today marks 10 weeks. The spotting is very minimal yesterday and today. So minimal if you weren't paying any attention you would even notice. It's a small amount of brown. Maybe this could be the end to all the blood clot drama. Other symptoms I have right now is that I have noticeable indigestion. I have never been the belching type. But now it's completely expected after I eat. On top of that tummy just grumbles all the time. Sometimes in the morning I am nauseous. I have a ton of snacks at my desk to help me between meals. It looks like snack central. When I start to feel light headed or a rumble I grab a small snack.
At 10 weeks the embryo becomes a fetus. Here is what happening with baby this week.
By the end of pregnancy week 10 your baby's organ systems are growing quickly. Now internal organs are starting to form and the vital organs including the liver, kidney, intestines and brain will start functioning. In the next three weeks alone your baby's length will grow exponentially. Tiny details will start appearing on your baby's body, including items such as toenails. If you were to look really closely you might even notice some peach fuzz growing on your baby's skin! By now your baby will be consumed with swallowing and kicking. That's right, your baby will swallow amniotic fluid during your pregnancy. Consider it a practice run for breathing once she is born!
Monday, March 23, 2009
Weekly Update
How far along? 9 wks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: My pants are having trouble staying up. DH asked me why I wasn't wearing a belt. Still bloated in the belly and no where else.
Maternity clothes? Same as last week. The jeans I live in when I can. But the other pants are bit annoying and just make me feel fat.
Stretch marks? Not any new ones yet.
Sleep: About the same as last week. Though I seem to have added about a restroom break every 2-4 hours.
Best moment this week: Seeing the heartbeat again.
Movement: last night I could have sworn I felt some flutters but I know it's too early
Food cravings: Potato Salad as been on my mind big time. I made some and eat a ton of it whoops.
Gender: At this point just a healthy baby.
Labor Signs: Nope..Many weeks away from this.
What I miss: I would say exercise. I am getting sick of the relaxing and resting. However, for my condition it's one of those things that have to happen. I miss running and weight lifting.
What I am looking forward to: The bleeding to stop and to find out the sex.
Weekly Wisdom: Tums is okay for heartburn and really helps. Fruit and juice is not good on a empty stomach because it's too acidic.
Milestones: 2nd ultrasound. Seeing and hearing the babies heartbeat via u/s. I am about 3 weeks away from being out of the 1st trimester. I am about to start week 10.
Total weight gain/loss: My pants are having trouble staying up. DH asked me why I wasn't wearing a belt. Still bloated in the belly and no where else.
Maternity clothes? Same as last week. The jeans I live in when I can. But the other pants are bit annoying and just make me feel fat.
Stretch marks? Not any new ones yet.
Sleep: About the same as last week. Though I seem to have added about a restroom break every 2-4 hours.
Best moment this week: Seeing the heartbeat again.
Movement: last night I could have sworn I felt some flutters but I know it's too early
Food cravings: Potato Salad as been on my mind big time. I made some and eat a ton of it whoops.
Gender: At this point just a healthy baby.
Labor Signs: Nope..Many weeks away from this.
What I miss: I would say exercise. I am getting sick of the relaxing and resting. However, for my condition it's one of those things that have to happen. I miss running and weight lifting.
What I am looking forward to: The bleeding to stop and to find out the sex.
Weekly Wisdom: Tums is okay for heartburn and really helps. Fruit and juice is not good on a empty stomach because it's too acidic.
Milestones: 2nd ultrasound. Seeing and hearing the babies heartbeat via u/s. I am about 3 weeks away from being out of the 1st trimester. I am about to start week 10.
Clarification
I noticed a facebook update after I was talking to my cousin about miscarriage. She wrote "It is not fair to blame God for disease and suffering when it is scientifically proven that it is cause by the innovations of mankind." I am not sure if this was directed towards me or our conversation but I just wanted to clarify my side. What I said is that miscarriage happen not necessary out of environmental factors but more out of nature and God. I didn't really get to elaborate but here we go. I am not a overally religious person. However, I do believe in a higher power. I was raised that everyone was entitled to their own beliefs. I went to several different churches growing up. From Jehovah's Witness to a Baptist church and even a Church of Christ. So I am all for people having their beliefs. But it's my belief that this universe was created by a higher power. Some refer to them as God, as I do as well. I feel that God created mankind and all other species. With any species there are going to be imperfections. From before time there have woman who are barren or who have trouble having children. This was not a fault of God or a mistake on his part. This is just part of how we are being developed. Sure there can be questions that innovations of mankind could have caused the infertility issues that woman have but who created mankind? Sandro feels it's all about the survival of the fittest.
My miscarriage was about natural taking it's course. Early miscarriages have tend to be a sign for most woman of a chromosome mismatch. Or there was a issue with the egg or the sperm. It's your body natural way stopping the birth of a child that could have several issues if brought into the world. To me it's a God fail safe way to prevent heartache and pain of all those involved. Sure the initial shock of a miscarriage is painful and afterward you feel empty but in the reality there is no way to stop or prevent a miscarriage.
I do not feel that environmental factors is what contributed to my miscarriage or the miscarriages of my family members. In all honestly I feel it's insulting for anyone to insinuate that my misfortunes are due to something that I could have prevented. I have seen so many people over the years that live perfectly healthy lives who are barren. I don't feel that mankind did this to them. This is just a unfortunate result of nature.
My miscarriage was about natural taking it's course. Early miscarriages have tend to be a sign for most woman of a chromosome mismatch. Or there was a issue with the egg or the sperm. It's your body natural way stopping the birth of a child that could have several issues if brought into the world. To me it's a God fail safe way to prevent heartache and pain of all those involved. Sure the initial shock of a miscarriage is painful and afterward you feel empty but in the reality there is no way to stop or prevent a miscarriage.
I do not feel that environmental factors is what contributed to my miscarriage or the miscarriages of my family members. In all honestly I feel it's insulting for anyone to insinuate that my misfortunes are due to something that I could have prevented. I have seen so many people over the years that live perfectly healthy lives who are barren. I don't feel that mankind did this to them. This is just a unfortunate result of nature.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Subchorionic Hematoma
So the bleeding started again. But it wasn't like it was unxpected. This time it looks like me period started. The blood is dark red and bright. (fresh) I think the clot could have been interrupted by intercourse. It was a huge gush at first and now it's slowed down to a slow bleed that only appears when I urinate. No cramping at all and no large clots are being passed. I am trying my best to just relax and take it easy and not panic. It you look closely at my u/s picture below. You will notice the dark spot. This is where they feel the clot is as well as where the bleeding is coming from.So what is the subchorinonic Hematoma (blood clot) in the uterus. Taken from here
The good news is that it's not completely uncommon. I found a long list of people that are suffering from the same thing and is experiencing the same thing. This is helping me stay positive. I have decided to completely not have intercourse until I know the clot is gone along with just taking it easy, no heavy lifting. I remind myself everyday there is nothing I can do to prevent a miscarriage. If I where to have one again then I know in my heart I will make it through it. However, I have a really good feeling about this after the last ultrasound. Baby is doing great and I just have to keep taking care of myself.
Causes of Subchorionic Hematoma
There is no known cause for a SCH but many researchers speculate that during egg implantation, the egg slightly separates or tears from the uterus causing a bleed. There is nothing a woman did or could have done to cause or prevent them. SCH occurs to pregnant women of all ages and races.
Diagnosing Subchorionic Hematoma
Diagnosing a SCH is based on its symptoms and visualization via ultrasound scan. Many women visit the doctor or emergency department with the chief complaint of vaginal bleeding during early pregnancy. An ultrasound, either transvaginal or abdominal, would more than likely be carried out. During the ultrasound scan, the doctor or radiologist will locate the fetus and assess it’s current condition. Identifying a SCH by an untrained eye is difficult. The clot appears as a black mass within the uterus. It almost appears as if another placenta is present. Ordinary ultrasound images appear blackish with visuals of bone. After a visual of the blood clot is made, and it appears a woman is not having a miscarriage, the diagnosis of SCH is made.
The good news is that it's not completely uncommon. I found a long list of people that are suffering from the same thing and is experiencing the same thing. This is helping me stay positive. I have decided to completely not have intercourse until I know the clot is gone along with just taking it easy, no heavy lifting. I remind myself everyday there is nothing I can do to prevent a miscarriage. If I where to have one again then I know in my heart I will make it through it. However, I have a really good feeling about this after the last ultrasound. Baby is doing great and I just have to keep taking care of myself.
Friday, March 20, 2009
Feeling that sense of calm today...
After such a stressful week and that scare I had about baby I am feeling so much better overall. The spotting has turned more into discharge (only on the liner not when I wipe and just a little bit) and my confidence level is steadily raising. Seeing the baby yesterday was absolutely amazing. It has grown so much in a week and the heart rate was so prefect. So steady. Looking closer at the u/s it says that the sac is measuring ahead 9 w 4 days. Yesterday I was supposed to be 9 w 1 day. So the fact that it jumped three days ahead makes me feel better about everything. I even did a little movement when we looking at it. The u/s tech said this rare. She said you can see the noobs starting to form that will be the arms and legs. So all of this has totally relaxed me. Yesteday I went home and had the worst headache. Not sure what caused it. Could be allergies. I literally collapsed in bed at 8:15. Of course I had about 5 runs to the restroom through out the night but I slept really hard and I woke up feeling tried but at least refreshed.
This weekend I have a photo shoot with Charisma. I am doing her bridals. I am so excited. I get to test out my new flash. Next weekend I have her wedding pictures to take.
This weekend I have a photo shoot with Charisma. I am doing her bridals. I am so excited. I get to test out my new flash. Next weekend I have her wedding pictures to take.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Back from the Dr. - Good News.
The appointment went well. They did a u/s and the baby is growing right on track. The HB is 170 bpm. They said the spotting is due to a small blood clot in the uterus. It will mean that I may have more spotting or it will disappear on it's own. They aren't too worried about it but they want me to come in two weeks for another u/s and appointment. I am so relieved. I am just so happy that baby is doing okay. I need to learn not to freak out about every little thing. She also told me the cramps that I am feeling are normal. It was great talking to the Dr. about my concerns. I am so happy I went.
U/S picture to follow. The baby did move a little. Which is a good sign since it's still a little early for that. It's growing right on track.
U/S picture to follow. The baby did move a little. Which is a good sign since it's still a little early for that. It's growing right on track.
Off to the Dr.
Yesterday I was getting a increase of the spotting. Not red or anything but it was starting to show up on the liner and was making me super nervous. So I called the nurse in a frantic and she told me not worry...she still thought it was normal. Yesterday I noticed that my sensitivity was at a all time HIGH. I was in tears all day partially. My customers were really getting on my nerves and I was just becoming stressed. DH thinks that stress is making the spotting appear that I just need to calm down. The nurse called me back about 10 mins later and told me that she talked to the Dr. and for my piece of mind that I should come in for a ultrasound at 11:00 a.m. tomorrow. She was concerned that it was adding to my stress worrying about and due to my past history that it may be better just to make sure all is good. This helped me calm down but still scared the crap out of because I just don't know what to expect. So again tears. I just really wanted a place I could cry for a moment because work was just killing me yesterday and I don't have a car and I can't cry in the restroom. So as soon as Sandro drove up I cried for almost the whole ride home. As awesome as he is he did what any man would do in the situation and just let me cry and told me that I need to stop reading the nest and to stop watching TV for awhile. He then forced me to go on a outing with him and the dogs and walk around the beach by the lake. We got subway and took the dogs with us. They really appeared to enjoy themselves. Though Apollo was deathly afraid of the waves. After that I felt the stress leave the body. The spotting slowed down a lot. So my goal is not to stress out. Just take one step at a time. Try to focus on the positive and don't let my customers get to me. All I can do now is hope and pray for the best. Hopefully at the appointment this morning they will tell me all is good and what I am experiencing is completely normal. I can't focus on the what if's. (Sandro exact words)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Week 9
So still a little spotting this morning. Sorta a brownish red only when I wipe. I had no spotting when I went to sleep and all looked good. I also was peeing and drinking a ton of water so perhaps that is why. No crazy cramps or anything out of the ordinary. I am suspecting a infection of some sort though, maybe a bladder or yeast infection causing the issue. But I guess this is just my way of being positive. I can tell you this morning I almost yacked in the shower. So nauseous for some reason. It makes it really hard to get going in the morning. I lay on the bed for at least 10 minutes after a shower. Then another 10 mins after I get dressed. Not real productive. I still get here early. I am hoping baby is okay. I am stilling a little pressure (crampy) in my pelvic area. But I don't really equate this to menstrual cramps. The nurse told me I could take Tylenol if I needed for the cramps but I told her that it really doesn't feel that bad or bad enough to take anything. Just kinda of gassy and uncomfortable but not rolling around in pain. My boobs are still growing. I look a little top heavy. They are very sensitive.
So here is what is going on with baby this week. Taken from here.
So here is what is going on with baby this week. Taken from here.
Your baby is growing like crazy during pregnancy week 9. By pregnancy 9 weeks most of the aspects of your baby's physical structure such as head, arms, legs and torso are in place. If you were to peek in on your little one you'd find they resemble a miniature human being (one with a very large head!). Because your baby's organs and limbs are forming, in the next few weeks your baby will be putting on weight. Your baby's tail should have disappeared by now, and your baby's organs and muscles should be functioning on their own.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Spotting
So yesterday I started spotting in the evening. It started as a really light red tinted cm (cervical mucus) and it only appears when I wipe. Before I went to sleep it, I did #2 and it appeared red. Not enough for a pad but it was very suspicious. Of course the super worried part of me goes into panic mode. Tears start flowing and I really just end up crying myself to sleep. This morning it's more brownish than anything. No cramping really just feeling a little uncomfortable. I, of course, am calling the doctor this AM and hoping and praying for a miracle. It could be too things. One that my cervix is super sensitive. I had sex twice this weekend and both times I wasn't particularly comfortable. Or it could be from my ultrasound last week and it's just now appearing. All I know is that I will have to reflect back to my Mantra's and just try to remain as positive as possible. I finding this difficult because there is nothing more than I want in this entire world but to have this baby.
* "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
* And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."
***Update: Talked to the Nurse. She said it's completely normal. Especially after sex. She said if the spotting turns to blood or if I feel menstrual like cramps to call again. But she feels it's completely normal especially during this point in the pregnancy. So I will be putting my feet up and taking a temporary pelvic rest to my next appointment. (which is next Tuesday) Luckily it's been super light (hardly brown at all) the last several times I went to the restroom.
* "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
* And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."
***Update: Talked to the Nurse. She said it's completely normal. Especially after sex. She said if the spotting turns to blood or if I feel menstrual like cramps to call again. But she feels it's completely normal especially during this point in the pregnancy. So I will be putting my feet up and taking a temporary pelvic rest to my next appointment. (which is next Tuesday) Luckily it's been super light (hardly brown at all) the last several times I went to the restroom.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Stolen Questionnaire
I have been a ball of emotions lately. For instance I cried at Costco yesterday. I was so proud that I had all my coupons ready. They tend to send them two weeks early. Well I got confused (or had a case of the pg brain) and I thought they were good on Sunday (March 15th) I mistakenly thought yesterday was the 16th. So there I was buying everything that my coupons where good for. Got up to the line and the girl was like today isn't March 16th. These aren't good till tomorrow. Before I could speak I just walked a way. She didn't need a pg lady going crazy on her. I just let Sandro deal with it. They told him that if we bring the coupons tomorrow that we can still get the discount and our money refunded. (which was close to $15 dollars) I sat there and cried for at least 5-10 mins. DH was trying to hard to get me to smile and not worry about it. Nonetheless we have plans to go to Costco to get our coupon savings. I was just really embarrassed.
Then on top of all that Sandro hasn't really been good about dealing with my emotions. Expect in the above scenario. For instance on Saturday I really wanted to check out the new Target. I had my coupons all ready and I thought it was a good day for it. So he says he will take me. We arrive and instantly he gets a attitude. He doesn't a partially like Target and to him they are all the same and didn't see the big deal of checking out the new one. So he stands behind me like an annoyed husband does. Doesn't rush me but really makes me feel uncomfortable because it's not talking or shopping just standing there annoyed. So while we are leaving I get upset. Then he says "I am not one of your girlfriends, what do you expect out of me?" So there I go crying fit. I didn't ask him to be one of my girlfriends. I just wanted him not to act so annoyed. Especially when I was looking at baby stuff. Another examples was yesterday I really wanted Hashbrowns. I got a package of organic ones and I had it in my head to have the ones they showed in the picture on the package. Well Sandro used the wrong pan and they came out soggy. (of course I get all upset) So he tries a different pan and managed to salvage them. I tried to explain to him that my hormones are just on overload.
Also my dreams have been crazy. Like last night I dreamed I become part of a computer game. I actually wrote the code. But somehow I had a glitch in the code that caused your to get caught in this maze that took you to this like a nazi boot camp. This camp was just basically set up to lower the amount of people in the human race. There was this one part where you had to order food and a quesadilla cost $233 dollars and all they would accept was checks. Then you would notice that older people where being sent off. (I guess to be killed) Then it switched back to the country. Like some people survived by not getting trapped in this maze and they all fled to the country. I think I was on my Grandma's porch with 10 other people camped out. They kept telling me it wasn't "really country" and asked me if I knew the back roads. At the same time there buses of people (like dart buses) flying through the roads. That is when I was awoken by the dirt bike sound of someone having a joy ride at 3:00 a.m. in the a.m. Trippy dream but I woke up remembering it all. I have a lot of those lately.
So one of my favorite blogs "The Heir to Blair" posts a weekly questionnaire on how the pregnancy is going so far. I love that idea so I am stealing it. She actually posts her weekly belly pictures and I soon will be doing this as well. :)
How far along? 8 wks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: Haven't weighed but my pants don't feel tight yet.
Maternity clothes? Yes, some days I do. But I don't like them much because they seem to emphasize my growing uterus.
Stretch marks? Only the ones I had from before (when I was bigger)
Sleep: Too freaking much. I go to sleep at 8:30-9:00..If I don't go to sleep on time I won't want to wake up the next morning. Also I have to nap 2-3 times on the weekend.
Best moment this week: I would have to stay hearing the whoosh whoosh whoosh.
Movement: Nope. But I have been cramping on and off all week.
Food cravings: Salty and Hot Foods, Peanut Butter Oatmeal Chocolate Cookies (made a batch this weekend)
Gender: Girl just because the clothes are cuter. But would be happy with a boy as well. DH wants a boy I think.
Labor Signs: Nope..Many weeks away from this.
What I miss: I think it's still the coffee. Though I did have a Decaf Mocha from starbucks this weekend. Yum.
What I am looking forward to: Having a real baby belly and telling people.
Weekly Wisdom: Eat smaller meals during the day vrs the big meals. It help with digestion.
Milestones: 1st ultrasound. Seeing and hearing the babies heartbeat via u/s.
Then on top of all that Sandro hasn't really been good about dealing with my emotions. Expect in the above scenario. For instance on Saturday I really wanted to check out the new Target. I had my coupons all ready and I thought it was a good day for it. So he says he will take me. We arrive and instantly he gets a attitude. He doesn't a partially like Target and to him they are all the same and didn't see the big deal of checking out the new one. So he stands behind me like an annoyed husband does. Doesn't rush me but really makes me feel uncomfortable because it's not talking or shopping just standing there annoyed. So while we are leaving I get upset. Then he says "I am not one of your girlfriends, what do you expect out of me?" So there I go crying fit. I didn't ask him to be one of my girlfriends. I just wanted him not to act so annoyed. Especially when I was looking at baby stuff. Another examples was yesterday I really wanted Hashbrowns. I got a package of organic ones and I had it in my head to have the ones they showed in the picture on the package. Well Sandro used the wrong pan and they came out soggy. (of course I get all upset) So he tries a different pan and managed to salvage them. I tried to explain to him that my hormones are just on overload.
Also my dreams have been crazy. Like last night I dreamed I become part of a computer game. I actually wrote the code. But somehow I had a glitch in the code that caused your to get caught in this maze that took you to this like a nazi boot camp. This camp was just basically set up to lower the amount of people in the human race. There was this one part where you had to order food and a quesadilla cost $233 dollars and all they would accept was checks. Then you would notice that older people where being sent off. (I guess to be killed) Then it switched back to the country. Like some people survived by not getting trapped in this maze and they all fled to the country. I think I was on my Grandma's porch with 10 other people camped out. They kept telling me it wasn't "really country" and asked me if I knew the back roads. At the same time there buses of people (like dart buses) flying through the roads. That is when I was awoken by the dirt bike sound of someone having a joy ride at 3:00 a.m. in the a.m. Trippy dream but I woke up remembering it all. I have a lot of those lately.
So one of my favorite blogs "The Heir to Blair" posts a weekly questionnaire on how the pregnancy is going so far. I love that idea so I am stealing it. She actually posts her weekly belly pictures and I soon will be doing this as well. :)
How far along? 8 wks 5 days
Total weight gain/loss: Haven't weighed but my pants don't feel tight yet.
Maternity clothes? Yes, some days I do. But I don't like them much because they seem to emphasize my growing uterus.
Stretch marks? Only the ones I had from before (when I was bigger)
Sleep: Too freaking much. I go to sleep at 8:30-9:00..If I don't go to sleep on time I won't want to wake up the next morning. Also I have to nap 2-3 times on the weekend.
Best moment this week: I would have to stay hearing the whoosh whoosh whoosh.
Movement: Nope. But I have been cramping on and off all week.
Food cravings: Salty and Hot Foods, Peanut Butter Oatmeal Chocolate Cookies (made a batch this weekend)
Gender: Girl just because the clothes are cuter. But would be happy with a boy as well. DH wants a boy I think.
Labor Signs: Nope..Many weeks away from this.
What I miss: I think it's still the coffee. Though I did have a Decaf Mocha from starbucks this weekend. Yum.
What I am looking forward to: Having a real baby belly and telling people.
Weekly Wisdom: Eat smaller meals during the day vrs the big meals. It help with digestion.
Milestones: 1st ultrasound. Seeing and hearing the babies heartbeat via u/s.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Ramen Noodles?!
Today I am eating Ramen Noodles...Picante Chicken flavor. No I am not in college anymore but I am craving salty hot foods. Plus it's cold outside. It makes up for my Taco Salad day yesterday. At least it's cheap. I know it's processed and kind of gross but dang it's my craving. I will probably have regrets later.
****Yummy...that was good!
****1:43 p.m. hello heartburn! :(
****Yummy...that was good!
****1:43 p.m. hello heartburn! :(
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
So that is what a craving is...
So I was about to DIE about a hour a go because all I could smell is taco/nachos from downstairs. It was so intense that literally it was all I could think about. I had been thinking about it in the morning because it's Taco Salad day Wednesday. I had brought my lunch (a organic burrito) just in case I didn't really want a Taco Salad. All was going good until I smelled the aroma from my coworkers lunch. That was it! I was sold. I told Sandro (via messenger) if I didn't get a Taco Salad immediately that I would die and eat my hand. Here is our convo:
Stephanie says:
kill me if you want
Stephanie Juric:
but omg God I am bout to die
Sandro says:
die?
Stephanie Juric:
yes
Stephanie Juric:
from hunger
Stephanie Juric:
and cravings
Sandro says:
what did you bring for lunch?
Stephanie Juric:
and I am so emotional I am about to throw my computer out the window
Stephanie Juric:
literally
Stephanie Juric:
out the freaking window
Stephanie Juric :
a burrito
Sandro says:
go get you nachos
Stephanie Juric:
I am trying to pace myself...
Stephanie Juric :
holy crap this is good
Sandro says:
lol
Sandro says:
you take it easy there
Sandro says:
don't eat your co-workers
Stephanie Juric:
I was about to eat my hand there for a second
Sandro says:
lol
Stephanie says:
kill me if you want
Stephanie Juric:
but omg God I am bout to die
Sandro says:
die?
Stephanie Juric:
yes
Stephanie Juric:
from hunger
Stephanie Juric:
and cravings
Sandro says:
what did you bring for lunch?
Stephanie Juric:
and I am so emotional I am about to throw my computer out the window
Stephanie Juric:
literally
Stephanie Juric:
out the freaking window
Stephanie Juric :
a burrito
Sandro says:
go get you nachos
Stephanie Juric:
I am trying to pace myself...
Stephanie Juric :
holy crap this is good
Sandro says:
lol
Sandro says:
you take it easy there
Sandro says:
don't eat your co-workers
Stephanie Juric:
I was about to eat my hand there for a second
Sandro says:
lol
Monday, March 9, 2009
We have a HB!
A strong 8 week heartbeat of 155 bpm. The sono tech said that the baby was up high in a nice cushy place in my uterus and that I most likely ovulated out of my right ovary. (just like last time) Wow! What a sigh of relief that I have. I tried to enter into this with as much positive energy as I could. I am so happy and excited. My due date is 10/21/08. However, my LMP says it's 10/19/08. As you remember in my chart it showed that I ovulated late. So the two day difference is actually correct. So technically this means I am 7 weeks 5 days...But definitely in the correct range.
So here is the pic of our blob (bean):
So here is the pic of our blob (bean):
Week 8
So today is the big day. So nervous but I am just trying to stay as positive as possible. Sandro and I have discussed this many of times and he wants me to remember that even if this isn't the one that we keep trying and will have a child. Perhaps not in 2009 but it will happen eventually. He is just tying to keep me from being too upset if this appointment doesn't work out they way WE want it to work out. This time he is trying to be realistic verses just so certain that nothing could go wrong. I understand why he is saying this and I appreciate it.
This weekend I was feeling a lot of cramps. I don't remember this feeling from last time so of course I did some goggle research on week 8. From here.
Time to pull out the mantra's today. Positive energy needed all around:
* "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."
* "I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise."
* "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
* "Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot ‘jinx’ your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!
* And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."
This weekend I was feeling a lot of cramps. I don't remember this feeling from last time so of course I did some goggle research on week 8. From here.
Some women notice some mild abdominal cramping midway through their first trimester. This is a very common experience and may continue for several weeks. The cramping is usually mild and does not cause any harm. Your physician may recommend you rest and stay off your feet if you are having abdominal cramping. Remember that your body is also accommodating a growing fetus, and your uterus is stretching, a process that might cause some discomfort over time. If you have any unusual abdominal pain or cramping however that is persistent and worrisome, or if you experience any cramping accompanied by bleeding be sure to contact your healthcare provider's office right away.
Time to pull out the mantra's today. Positive energy needed all around:
* "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."
* "I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise."
* "My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!
* "Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot ‘jinx’ your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!
* And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Economy Sucks
Yesterday was a super hard day for me. They laid off two people in our group. We are a small company and losing two people is going to super hard. They said it was the economy and that is the only layoffs that they foresee. Of course he said that he didn't have a crystal glass to see what could happen in the future. I feel sick to my stomach to think that it could have just as easily been me they laid off. One of the coworkers they let go did the same job that I did. However, she was part time. The other coworker was a developer. Lets just say that it's going to be so super quiet around here and one of my closest work buddies is now gone.
I am so worried about bringing baby into a bad economy like this. DH and already discussed a gameplan in which we will be very frugal for the next several months making sure we have a decent sized baby fund saved up. We are cutting back as much as we can and basically eliminating all unnecessary spending. Of course there is this deep down fear one of could lose our job. It's just such a bad time for baby but I can't say I regret it all. I want this baby more than anything and really you can't depend on the economy or anything else to make it a better situation. Recessions scare me but perhaps there is a chance to turn it around with our newly elected president. I know it will be several years to have our economy to recover. I am confident Sandro, baby and I will survive.
I am so worried about bringing baby into a bad economy like this. DH and already discussed a gameplan in which we will be very frugal for the next several months making sure we have a decent sized baby fund saved up. We are cutting back as much as we can and basically eliminating all unnecessary spending. Of course there is this deep down fear one of could lose our job. It's just such a bad time for baby but I can't say I regret it all. I want this baby more than anything and really you can't depend on the economy or anything else to make it a better situation. Recessions scare me but perhaps there is a chance to turn it around with our newly elected president. I know it will be several years to have our economy to recover. I am confident Sandro, baby and I will survive.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Week 7
One more week until the big ultrasound. Symptoms seem to be about the same. I am hungry all the time and can't really function well if I miss a meal. My stomach growls in the morning even after eating a good sized dinner. I am feeling bloated more than anything and my face just looks different. I can't wait till next week. I have a feeling that I will be completely unable to focus until after the appointment next Monday. All I can say is that I am happier that it's earlier this time because I want to know what is happening down there..good or bad.
I am really sleepy this morning. This is the type of morning that I miss coffee. Decaf is great but it just doesn't have that kick that regular coffee has. I yawn all morning and just feel so sleepy that all I want to do is take a nap at my desk.
Here is what happening with the back this week.
I am really sleepy this morning. This is the type of morning that I miss coffee. Decaf is great but it just doesn't have that kick that regular coffee has. I yawn all morning and just feel so sleepy that all I want to do is take a nap at my desk.
Here is what happening with the back this week.
I'm Tiny But Gaining Fast!
The baby is about 1/3 of an inch, the size of a grain of rice. Development of the arms and legs continue although the fingers and toes haven't yet formed. The brain is growing as well as the lenses of the eyes, nostrils, intestines, pancreas and bronchi.
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